Monday, 14 March 2016

Fun Questions Tag

1) When is your birthday? (You don't have to include the year if you don't want to.)
April 7th 1994

2) What are 3 of your favorite colors?
Grey, Maroon, Purple

3) What are your 3 favorites quotes?
"You forgave faults, found perfection, fell madly; then the next day the sun came up and it was over" - William Goldman
And in that moment I possessed and lost the whole world and everything in it and was left with the feeling and the knowledge, which is love, that no matter how we give ourselves we always end up losing. That to love is to lose, the moment we agree to the bargain. And that, being human, we keep standing there wanting to lose more." - Ann Rinaldi
There's only one rule you need to remember: laugh at everything and forget everybody else! It sound egotistical, but it's actually the only cure for those suffering from self-pity" - Anne Frank

4) Are you addicted to YouTube?
Urmm.... Completely

5) What are 3 of your favorite shows on TV or YouTube or both?
They change all the time but at the minute they are...
The Vampire Diaries, The Originals, Psych

6) What are 3 qualities you like in a best friend?
Deal with my craziness, likes to consume vast amounts of wine, and random road trips

7) Do you like your name? 
Better than the other name my parents wanted.

8) If you have the choice to pick your own name, what will it be?
I would of liked to be called Gabriella

9) What is your fantasy dream?
Going to the Maldives with friends, or a road trip across the USA

10) Do you wear makeup?
Yeah I do, I absolutely love it, it's very empowering!

11) If you could write a book, what would the title be and what would it be about?
I started to write a book, don't want to give away anything though, hoping to get it published someday

12) What makes you cry?
A lot of stuff from books to movies, to just general stuff in life.

13) What makes you angry?
When people are completely arrogant and stubborn

14) What makes you happy?
Every day things, like seeing friends, family, food! Food always makes me happy haha

15) What is "Fangirling?"
I'm not entirely sure and I kind of don't understand it

16) What are your 3 favorites snacks?
Strawberries, Chocolate, grapes

17) What are your 3 favorite foods?
Pizza, Pasta, Anything Italian really

18) What are your 3 favorite drinks?
Coffee, Water, Sprite

19) Can you tell us a little about yourself?
Urmmm... i'm 21 wanted to be an actress all my life, started this blog because I was suffering with suffer depression and needed and outlet, I have an autoimmune disease, and have had a lot of bad stuff happen to me, but because of this I feel stronger than ever!

20) What are 10 random facts about you?
1) I'm 5'3
2) I absolutely love America and the first time I went there was in 1996.
3) I went to Africa when I was 17 and stayed there only for 24 hours
4) I'm a really picky eater and wont eat most meats
5) I'm allergic to shellfish
6) I got my first "Acting" Agent at 11 years old
7) My favourite singer is Michael Jackson, the man was incredibly talented, my parents actually have a video of me singing "You are not alone" at 3 or 4 years old!
8) My favourite Actress's are Keira Knightley, Emma Thompson & Helena Bonham Carter
9) I can speak basic French
10) I can sing, and would really like to do some cover videos soon.

21) What are your 3 fun things to do?
1) Love going to France absolutely love going there.
2) Just going for a drive, actually really like travelling.
3) Hanging out with friends

Monday, 7 March 2016

Living With An Autoimmune Disease!

(Started writing this as kind of a motivational/informative post kind of ended up a rant, sorry about that!)

A little over a year ago I was suddenly struck down with severe weakness and tiredness, to the point that if I were to sit on the floor I could not get up on my own, at first it was very confusing and frustrating because even getting up from a chair was near on impossible, feeling as though someone was pushing me back down, but physical weakness and uncontrollable fatigue aside, the hardest thing about having an "Autoimmune Disease" is you feel pretty much alone, and when the people around you don't really understand what it is you have or why you cant just "stand up" it can get very stressful and depressing. I've had to deal with being left out of things like going to the beach, camping, and sports because I physically can not do it, I've lost jobs and now am unemployed because I physically can not work, even though I look quite well on the outside, inside is a daily struggle of being in pain and tired all the time!

Now... Autoimmune diseases are a very broad canvas, and I personally do not know which one I "specifically" have, but I do know it is non life threatening, but I will have it for the rest of my life, and let me tell you the prospect of that is so friggen scary! I do not know what triggered mine, could of just been my age or could have been from a fall I had a while back, I went through a faze of randomly feeling disorientated and just falling over which my now very scarred up knees have not thanked me for, but... that being said medical professionals do not know what causes these autoimmune disease and their is no "cure".
Also I lost over 3 stone in 6 months and am still loosing weight now, sounds great doesn't it, but its really not, its quite scary when you're not yet diagnosed with anything.

I don't really know why I am writing this post but I just hope if someone else who has a autoimmune disease reads this they can realise they're not alone. It has taken me over a year for a doctor to actually take me seriously and get me the help I need, I've been told it was just all in my head that my muscles where working fine and there was no reason why I couldn't move, I was put through Physiotherapy and told to do exercises I couldn't do, and then get moaned at, at my next appointment because I had not improved. So many blood tests I couldn't even tell you how many it was I actually have had, and put on various medications which as you guessed did nothing at all.

My point is... If you don't feel well keep on and on until you get the help you need, I have to have a muscle biopsy at some point in the near future and then steroid treatment (not looking forward to that) but after over a year of being ill it has given me hope that I can get better well into "remission" as they call it, and my life will improve.

(I also wanted to do this post as a reasoning as to why I do not "work" in the normal sense as I have had a few questions on this on other social media sites.)

So yeah... If you have an autoimmune disease or any other medical problem that causes you to not be able to work, (in the conventional sense) what do you do for a living, or do you have any tips on how to make life easier?
I'd love to hear your stories too :)